A Thousand Losses

This path we are on is not an easy path. No parent is supposed to have to bury their child. Its supposed to be for people that get old and die in their sleep.

We have no regrets with Zachary. We went on a Dream Trip to Disney World, Sea World Orlando,  and Give Kids the World in September. We just returned from a great vacation in San Diego. We all went to Mary Poppins last week @ Arizona Broadway Theatre (which was practically perfect in every way). We were given lots of opportunities to be a family in the last year.

Zachary is in heaven now (with Charlie our dog who also died this week). Zachary knew Jesus and knew that he was going to heaven. Please if you dont know if you are going to heaven, ask us. We KNOW we are going to see Zachary again.

Now, Zachary can run without gasping for air.
Zachary can skip steps as he climbs stairs.
Zachary doesn't have to spend a few hours every week in one doctor's office or another.
Zachary can High Five instead of High Four.

Before Zachary was born, we had the option to abort Zachary. We know that life is precious and worth fighting for so we didnt abort. We knew it would be tough but that EVERY DAY was a gift from God. Zachary had a lot of miracles poured onto him. He should not have made it a week and we got four and a half GREAT years with him.

Its a nightmare that we are in right now. We wake up at night thinking that it was all a dream. Its not. The loss of Zachary breaks our heart. Is it possible to hurt this much? We have zero energy to do anything. We dont want to eat. We dont want to play with the other boys. We sat down for breakfast at the table and had to move to the counter because of the empty seat we now have.

But then we remember Zachary's smile and his laugh and his dogged determination to finish the task at hand and so... we get up and keep moving.  (This kid was a week or two from reading!!!!) 😂

This will be a long path that we dont want to walk. We are actually being carried thru it. Thank you for praying for us and helping us. For those that have reached out, please keep doing so. Its encouraging to us even if we dont have the energy to respond. This is exhausting just trying to survive.

We cry a lot. Its ok to cry with us. Please dont feel awkward to bring up Zachary in the days, weeks and months ahead. Its ok if you say something that makes us cry because we associate it with Zachary. Zachary's death is a thousand losses. (Good friend explained this to us).  Zachary was our boy and its going to hurt for a very long long time. That is ok.

Ways to Help:

Go Fund Me
Celebration of Life Service - June 16th @ 10 AM. Click the link for details.

Keep Reaching Out - Please dont stop. Even if we dont respond.


What funds we don't use for the Celebration of Life Service, we will donate to a reunion fund that will bring heart kiddos like Zachary and PCH staff together to celebrate the Hope the patients received because of PCH.

Thank you in advance!