426 Days

426 days

How has it been 426 days since Zach was with us?   The boys will be back to school tomorrow and the house will be quiet.   The boys are ready to be back to school and be back in a routine.  

This year is particularly hard for me sending them back.  This year Zach would have started kindergarten.   

He was so excited to get to go to his brothers’ school for kinder.   Zach’s face would light up when we would go pick his big brothers up from school.   We would sit in the car pick up line and he would get out of his car seat and go sit in another seat with no car seat and buckle himself in and just laugh and smile.  He thought he was such a big kid.   He was my buddy.  When the older two were at school we would hang out in the afternoons, take naps, and more then often not take trips to PCH for  appointments.  

It’s also harder this year because school starts on August 7th which is a year and two months since he died.   We miss him everyday.  Some days it’s harder then others.  I’m learning to lean into the waves of grief and trying not to go around them.  I would much rather go around but I know at some point I will have to walk through because there really is no way around it.   

We are so thankful to everyone who continues to pray for our family and our boys.  I know they are missing their brother too.  Josiah specifically has been asking every night, at bedtime to “talk about Zach.”   

We continue to trek along and do the best we can.   

Pre-School 2017